Just Believe..

So, just when your mountain seems too high

And your valley falls too low

Just when your tears, they come so fast,

You can’t tell which way to go

Just when your heart’s about to break

From the pain that’s deep inside

That is the time when you just believe…

                                     ~ LaShanna R. Tripp, Just Believe. Wordz & Rhythmz Publishing, 2007.

 

I originally wrote the song, “Just Believe,” in 2007 for the one and only American Idol Songwriting Competition that took place that season. It didn’t win, but this season, those lyrics are speaking to me.

When God told me to “launch into the deep” in the Spring of 2019,

I knew then that I was about to be swimming for my life.

Literally.

My older siblings will tell you that I had a time battling water as a toddler, so any references to swimming around in deep waters instigate fear. I prefer to feel my feet touch bottom.

But we know that sometimes, the only way to overcome that fear is to jump in head first, right? Well, I seem to have that part down pretty good!

At the age of three, I saw all of my older siblings splashing around in the cool, aqua waters of our backyard pool in Yorba Linda, California. I saw their heads above the water so all was safe, right? I gleefully called out their names, waving wildly. Then, I launched my little brown body into that pool,  nearly drowning.

If it weren’t for my oldest brother, Lou Price, I wouldn’t be here writing this.

43 years later, I am drowning again, but God warned me and promised a safety net. But that didn’t mean I wasn’t apprehensive. The last time I left the comfort of a full-time job to pursue passion, I lost everything and ended up homeless.

I just couldn’t go back to that. As I prayed for a new response, all He said to me was, “This time won’t be like last time,” then sent me to Isaiah 54.

When you want to succeed as badly as you want to breathe, then you’ll be successful!

~Eric Thomas, The Hip Hop Preacher

If this season has proved anything to those of us who believe in Him, it’s that God says what He means, and He means what He says. As I see so many of my friends, family and entrepreneurial cohorts succeed and make huge moves to shift their lives to greater during this pandemic, I am excited for them, and celebrate with them, but I myself am encountering some extremely dire circumstances that threaten to take me out completely.

WHAT. IS. THIS?!?

Ever feel like all you did was wake up to conquer the day and all you continue to hit are brick walls? I mean, how many meetings can you take and be told no? How many calls, how many emails, how many grants, how many auditions, how many opportunities can you apply for, and be told no, and keep moving? How many, how many, HOW MANY?

Yep. That’s me right now.

I can’t make sense of anything right now, and it’s so frustrating! And I can’t help but wonder, am I the only one willing to verbalize how low I feel? I have never been great at covering up how I feel. What you see is what you get, and my face will tell you everything. Want to win at poker? Play me. Worst poker face EVER. Heck, I don’t even know how to play poker, so there you go!

But this lets me know, more than anything, that there is something big brewing with every step I make. With every call, I am closer. With every email, I am closer. With every no, there’s a yes building somewhere. I just have to keep striking the rock, place my hope in God, and trust I will strike gold soon.

Every delay, every denial, every choice, every thing God has allowed to be placed on hold and blocked is leading me on a journey to something greater that must be completed in order for His will to manifest in my life. I will continue to work, I will continue to keep the faith, and I will continue to confess His Word.

I am in spiritual labor,

and these pains are something serious.

Lord, help thou my unbelief…

 

 

 

Promises, Promises…

Ask...Believe...Receive

I remember when Connie and I lost everything — all we had were God’s promises to stand on.

We were staying at the In Town Suites back in 2010 on Huffman Road. The room fee had to be paid the next day and we had $0 in the bank.
I sat on the bed in the tiny room squeezing my eldest daughter, Miracle, to my chest. She was only 1 year old at the time, and I was pregnant with Connie III. I rocked her in my arms just crying and praying for God to show up. I repeatedly told Him I knew He would provide.

It seemed like forever before I calmed down, no tears left to cry.

I sullenly checked my email and noticed a random email from, Tracy, a close friend of ours. She was telling me she was thinking about us and to call her first thing in the morning.
We talked the next day and we ended up at her house, where she put a check for about $250, along with a sealed envelope, into my hands! I nearly choked. But, I heard God clearly instruct me to pray with her before we left. So we held hands and stood in a circle to pray, and then we left…
Connie and I were astounded by the $250! As we continued driving, headed to our bank to deposit the check, I opened the envelope she had included and pulled out a card.

As I opened the card, another check for about $1,000 fell into my lap!

I screamed and had to call her back! No one but God put us on her heart to do this.
Tracy’s move of faith is a constant reminder to me that God works miracles through people, and He always gives us more than what we ever ask of Him.
I share this story because what I know first-hand is this:
No matter how painful this global COVID-19 pandemic is, or how bleak things look for us right now, God is always faithful and His Word will never return to Him void!
Just this morning, I was telling my children about showing God gratitude.
We serve the same God who provided fresh manna from heaven each morning for the children of Israel after they fled Egypt. And they could never store and keep any of that day’s manna because it would rot!

They had to trust God daily to provide their basic needs.

We are all apparently in flight, and it is in this place, this space, this time of transition, that God promised to be RIGHT HERE IN OUR MIDST…
He promised to never leave nor forsake us…
He promised that where two or more are gathered in His name He’s in the midst…
Yahweh promised that we shall have WHATSOEVER WE SAY…
He promised that He would bring us to an expectant end…
God promised that nothing would EVER separate us from His love…
Our Loving Father promised that we would have life more abundantly…
And His promises go on…
Right now, I encourage each of you, as I encourage myself.
Each day, get into your personal time with Him and call out those things that be not, as though they are.
Speak aloud those secret things He promised you.
Ask Him for clarity, direction, resources and breakthroughs that only He will be able to get the glory for once He has brought them to fruition in your life.
GOD IS ABLE!!